It’s been a little more than 24 hours since I had my job interview for the Prep Cook position in one of our local restaurants and I am feeling more and more like I won’t get the job because of my age and my inexperience in a real restaurant kitchen.
I know it seems silly to feel that way after a mere 24 hours however, amongst other things, I suffer from depression. That’s a reality that I have just recently come to accept and I guess is one of the reasons I try so hard with my recipes. I don’t want to fail at those and add another piece to the “failure” pile which, by the way, my therapist keeps telling me is not as big as my imagination makes it out to be.
Imagination can be a wonderful thing. It allows us to use everyday items and transform them into a play toy that will keep us occupied for hours. It allows us to read a book and be transported to some mystical realm and it also allows us to create wonderfully flavorful dishes in the kitchen but imagination suffers when depression surfaces because the mind says “you can’t do this so don’t even try” and so you give up and if you let it then depression will certainly kill any New Beginning. The thing I have to remember is that I AM THE BOSS not the negative thoughts and as long as I keep that in mind I am well on my way to coming out on top in this particular battle.
So my friends if like me you suffer from depression, anxiety or any of the myriad of Mental Health issues that we still don’t talk about openly then I suggest you do what I need to do—- lean on family and friends, remember I am the boss and fight to get better —– after all you and I are worth it.
Until next time………….
Bon Appetit
gardensandgrills 
well said. I stopped worrying about things I can’t change and that has helped immensely. Remember if you think you can, you can and if you think you can’t you can’t so I always try to focus on “I can” and remember good things take a long time to achieve.
I don’t know what that Prep Cook job entails but if it’s a position where there is a chance to learn and grow I would take it. If they thought you were too old there wouldn’t hire you in the first place so i think you shouldn’t worry about age as long as you are ready to learn. I apologize in advance for commenting … without much background information.
Hey Liz
I appreciate the comment and don’t ever apologize for making one after all your opinion counts as much as mine does. The Prep Cook in a kitchen does the grunt work… doing dishes, hauling garbage, cutting up fruits and vegetables….. the basic starting point in any restaurant kitchen.
The greatest problem for me in the current state of mind that I am in is keeping the positive at the fore front but….. I’m a fighter and I wil continue to do just that.
Thanks again fro dropping by and the comment….. I truly appreciate it.
Cheers
I feel so guilty. I have been meaning to check on you, but summer can be very busy with children etc. What happened did you take the job? I am eager to hear!
Hey Liz Thanks for coming by I did take the prep cook job and have been working 9 or 10 hour days and having a whole lot of fun I also agree about summer being so busy….. hope yours has been a blast. Hope to drop by your blog soon
Cheers
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I am so very happy for you. It’s great to hear that you are having lots of fun. It really matters that one loves and enjoys whatever they are doing. My summer is great, nothing to whine about and the weather has been awesome. I wish you all the best and I shall keep my fingers crossed for you. Best wishes in everything you plan to do!
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